Are You Satisfied?

February is a tough month. In fact, this is the first year in almost 30 years, I haven’t been miserable just because it’s February.

3 Reasons February Is Terrible

1. It’s Cold and Wet

The weather in February is just miserable. In fact, CT (where I’m from) is being pelted with snow storm after snow storm this February. In December, and even in January, the snow is fun and the cold is tolerable, but by February we are done. For many of you reading this, you live in an area where February is awful because it’s bone chilling cold, and wet. You know when it’s so cold that your back starts spasming when you get the in car you forgot to warm up (not that that ever happened to me…).

2. It’s Dark

I’m so grateful to have moved to a place with sun in February, but for 29 Februaries I lived where it’s dark and gray. Even during the day it’s gray and icky outside. If you are lucky enough to have a 9-5 type job, it’s dark when you leave for work, and it’s dark when you get home. Where is the sun? Where is the light?

3. Valentine’s Day… A.K.A. Singles Awareness Day

So. Much. Pressure. Valentine’s Day is supposed to be about love. A day of celebration. But let’s be real, whether you are single or attached Valentine’s Day comes with a certain level of expectation and pressure. If your single, (especially if you were dumped right before Valentine’s Day because some boy didn’t want to get you a present, again not that that ever happened to me…) it can be an in your face reminder of the relationship you don’t have. But if you are attached, sometimes it can be full of unmet unrealistic expectations. It has to be perfect. It has to be romantic. It has to satisfy.

For many who live in the North February is miserable because it’s cold, wet and gray. SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is a very real struggle. Of course, not everyone lives in the north. But even if you live in a warmer climate, there is still something about February that creates a longing for spring. We’re done with the death of winter and ready for the new life of spring. Now, to be fair, some people love Valentine’s Day, but for many it just adds to an already depressing month.

For me, the dissatisfaction of February traditionally lead to evaluating my life and setting out to make changes. For many years I would make life goals about relationships, money, faith, health, etc. I was desperate to find satisfaction, happiness, love, worth in something. Anything.

I couldn’t find it

I couldn’t find it in relationships. I couldn’t find it in a career. I couldn’t find it in money. I couldn’t find it in my kids, a hobby, serving at church, or sex.

I found it in Jesus. He is honestly the ONLY thing that can completely satisfy us.

As I endeavor for the rest of the month to explore the things we look to for satisfaction, let me ask you a question.

Are You Satisfied?

What is one thing you look to for satisfaction that just isn’t coming through for you?